Finally.....I get into my blogger and get to write. Hmmm its a new year and the fasting season is over. I hope the new year brings happiness and prosperity for everyone. My holidays so far have been good, but eat too much of that spicy stuff and I get stomach problems so quick. The New Year was celebrated with an early nite sleep so essentially I slept for 1 year, from 2001-2002. Next stop to Jakarta for some major shoppin!!

==On Reflection==

Well, 2001 was a year that had many things happen to me and other people.
My year began in Muara Aman in Indonesia and the New Year heard with a siren, nothing like them fireworks back in Sydney. 2001 was a year of uncertainty for me, just finishing school and not sure where I'd be going to next.
I found a friend in Febi, you could say first real female friend and I also me her friends. unfortunately I didn't spend that much time in Jakarta so I didn't really get that much time to have some fun with her and her friends.
Lucky for me, and thanks to Allah, I got into uni. A little far, but me grateful none the less I got into Bachelor of Computer Science at UWS Macarthur. When I had to register to the uni, my family went to Indo and I went with rita to theuni for the frst time. I still remember the first day I went by myself, as I passed the child care centre, I remember how quick its been since my days at pree school and now into uni. I sorta missed high school then, coz everything at uni u do on your own and theres no teacher to back u up. Being at a far away uni, no one from my school went there so I didn't know many people except redha and da Arif who also went there. I thought it would be really hard to find new friends but it wasn't that hard after all. My first friends were Don, Diana and Jacky who were together as a group. Eventually later on in the semester I found friends in Clark, Rajiv, Anthony, Chris, Minh, Peter, Julie, and among others, can't remember. Semester 1 I failed Maths 1.1-gotta do that again (hate maths). Semester 2 I failed PP2-at lest I didn't fail any other subjects, which I thought as a whole I did not go well in any exam, so I'm glad I passed everything except PP2, but it would have been nice if I passed all exams. So that was my year at uni. Hope this year in 2002 I work more harder...
While that was going on, adjusting to uni life, with my personal life theres other things that happen. After coming back to Sydney, I was pretty happy after meeting Febi and making friends with her and her friends. I didn't really care about not being in a relationship and after what happened at school I didn't really think about 'Her' either. While my family was away in Indo, I spent quite a while chatting on the net, coz i was that bored. Then I had a chat with this girl called Eva, whose nick was ce_cantik at that time. I was asking her why she had a ick like that...I was sorta not liking people who gave themselves big names like that unless it was justified so I was testing her out. After a while, a few weeks of chatting to her a lot, I sorta felt attached to her I guess. She was pretty and she said all the things that got to me, it made me felt special becaue no one had said them to me before. So, after 2 weeks of knowing her I said how bout we be a couple. She said she felt the same and it was done. we were a 'virtual' couple. I told everyone about her, showed a computer print of her to people and I said to everyone she was my first girlfriend. After 2 months some things happened. She was sick (she said typhoid) and so not much communication. Then when she did come back she said that she not allowed to go on the net. Her father mad at her, spend too much time on the net and bla blah. So I didn't want any more of it, can't go between her and her father, I told her to end it. By that time I realised that what I was having with her was not a real relationship, because she wasn't there for me at the time I needed her the most-this being when myhouse got robbed and the guy takes all my good stuff!! At that time I felt so stupid, and it was stupid, I mean you don't have a relationship like that. For all I know she could be someone completely different to the person on the net, and someone that I didn't expect (big risk). It was made even more apparent when my friend as asking about his face, he asked if I could see his pimple, cos he wanted to impress this girl for a date. That night I felt really lonely and all those feelings I had for Eva just went away in a flash, because I realised what real relationship is and what I had was definately not that-well at least that's what I think up till now. So after 2 months I say good bye to Eva, and I think for the best. So until now I still have yet to experiece a real relationship....
Well, Febi helped me out throughout most of the year, thru settling into uni and with the Eva saga and other stuff. I didn't reply to many of her emails and other people too (sorry yea), I'm just too lazy. A few things also happen with her. At the time I told her about Eva, she sent me sms, hich made me think that she liked me as well. Turns out that it was jsut misunderstnding and I\m glad I sorted that out. Another thing that happened was that I thought that Ilham and her were gettin it on when he says 'say' to her on the phone. Kinda got me thinking too. But thatturn out that they jus playing round. I'm glad I sorted that out. What else happened, I jsut forgot, there as a guy but it not work out for her. Ah don't worry Febi, like you said, we'll all fnd our happiness one day. Hope this year u still get to chill out even tho its your last year. Good luck!
And then there was Melissa. I still remember how I started chattign with her, she wasn't that friendly...kept on saying her name was Daffy, I think that was back in 2000. Well in 2001she moved to Melbourne to go to school (u sholda goen to Sydney instead!), and I got to chat to her a lot on the fone-probably why I get a lot of headaches, too much talking on the mobile, but with what was said it was worth it. We talked a lot about my life and her life and shared a lot of things. It was as if we've been long time friends. She's also a good friend to me-like Febi. I'm glad that both of them a friends too. Can't wait to meet u ME sooon!
As for who I liked, I spent too much time on the net and not much time going out, I rarely go out anyway...But yea then there was Jeniffer, but it turn out that she was a completely different person. At that time I realised tha not everyone is truthful to you on the net, or wherever, even if u are. Then I guess there was period of not really liking someone, and then came the twins. They lived in Penshurst, came from Aus, Scotland, Spain, and Filo Land, a nice combination ; ) After seeing them a few times I wanted to get to know them, maybe even go out with one of them. But they were both taken, and knowing me being shy I never really got to talk to them or get to know them. Oh well. One thing I realised about who I've liked this year is that they were all pretty. I think Melissa reminded me of this and I thank for that. I now know that looks is not the most important thing when it comes to liking someone. Sure, looks are there for someone to be attracted to, sorta like the bait. But really its better to like someone for who they are inside. I guess u can't really tell how someone is inside until u get to know them. So as of now, I don't really like like anyone. I mean I might think there a few people that are pretty that I would like to get to know, but as for someone I constantly think about, there isn't.Even tho I don't really like anyone, I don't feel empty, like I used to. I guess its because I've realised what it is to really like someone, and what a relationship may be like (not like what I experienced), and so like what Melissa said to me, I'm not not finding someone to like anymore. I'll let it come to me. If by some chance, I', attracted to someone, and they're attracted to me, I'll get to know them, and if I like what's inside them, you never know....they might just become my wife-as simple as that.
While me in ndo I might as well make the msot I have of the time here and meet the new freidns I made while on the net. Thanks to Denis aka caplang I became aop in #al-azhar. Met lota ppl there. So gotta meet them if I got the time (maybe I might even like one of them ; ) ). Can't wait for that too.

Hmmm, I think thats about it that I have to say for now, about the year 2001. Oh yea there were other things that happen around the world, most sad being the WTC incideent which rocked the wrold. I hope that none of us get to see such a thing ever happen again. With all these disasters happening it's also sign that judgment day is near. You know I never really thought about it until now. There are all these tell-tale sign about judgement day. I guess I should watch I do and help other to do the same. Better do more good deeds that make bad ones.

Oh yea, gotta say sorry to Nadia, for she wait for my letter for so long.....I'll send it one day...trust me.

==The Book Closes on 2001==