Last Nite..

Ah well I had a late night last night, slept at 2 am. And why? Because I stay up chatting all night. I must admit, it's been a while since I've had a nice chat with someone. But this time it wasn't thru mIRC, but using MSN Messenger. It all started during the day when I was bored and decided to add some people that were on this email that came from Jacky onto my MSN list. Chose the ones with interesting email addresses and the female ones hehe. Then later on at night, got all these messages asking who I was and where I got their email blah blah. Turns out some ppl are from same uni and yea. But who I was chatting to all night was this girl that liked k-pop. So we spent the night talking about ourselves and about K-pop. And she was a good person to chat to, she kept the conversation going so it wasn't boring (something that I've come to feel in general with chatting to new people). Then she said she had assignments to do in her holidays and I offered to help her. So I spent the last of my net time helping her before I went to sleep. Now I'm wondering why I did that. I guess it's a few factors including I like to help people (when I feel like it), I had nothing else to do, and it might help me to get to know this person more. But am I also expecting something in return? Yes and no. Yes, I would like to borrow her cd collection so I can listen to it and she can borrow mine. And yes it would be nice if we could be friends in real life too. But if none of that happens, I'm still happy because I got to help someone and it's good to help people. But still it's bugging me as to why I helped her. Well these are the factors that buggin me. The fact that she was Japanese, and that she is a she and not a he, and that she is younger than me. It brings back about what was said during the debate between me and Melissa-the fact that I go on the net and stay on for hours and chat to girls and add them to my list of a perspective girlfriend. It sounded kinda harsh to me, but that discussion sorta woke me up a bit. Well I'm going to talk more about this later, to clear some things up. But relating what was said then to now, I guess that's why I am uneasy about what I did last night. It make me wonder if what I did was to get this person to like me or something like that. But is that such a horrible thing to do? It also reminded what I did a while back, I did a whole assignment and not just help someone and stay up till 3 am doing it! I did it because they were appealing to me to help them, and I gave in, I felt sorry for them and like I was their only help. But the factor back then too was also like in this case. I wanted to get to know them as well and meet them eventually. She promised me this and that if I helped her, but I didn’t really care about what she was going to give, I helped her because she came to me for it, I guess I should be happy that I did help her and not turn my back away….Ok ok, I’ve had a think about it. The main reason why I helped her was because she would like to chat to me and she had assignments to do and I offered to help her, to make it easier for her to finish it so she can do other things. If possible I’d like to get to know this person, make a new friend, have someone to talk to about K-pop and so on. Enuff said. I’m happy =)