Last week I was cleaning my cupboard and found a set of rings that I had. One of those was one that I had for a long time but kinda forgot about over the years. This ring, made of silver, turned brown over the years and that's why I left it unused. For some reason, when I found it it looked better than before, even unique.
This ring (should have a picture here) was given to me by my uncle when he had a silver jewellery shop in Bogor some years ago. I don't remember how I came to receive it but I wore it for some time before it started to degrade. Now it's come back into my life with a new meaning.
Lately I've been having some desire to stick a ring on my finger. I guess it's for a couple of reasons. It looks nice to have some shiny thing on your finger, it's something to play with when you're bored and I can use it as a mini mirror when my watch isn't around. It also has another significance, and that is to invoke a reaction. Two years ago I bought some rings with the intention of wearing one while I went to Indonesia. I did it because I wanted to show people that I was unavailable (or to at least make it appear that way). I guess I didn't want people to bother me with asking about marriage. Instead, it got other unwanted attention, where people asked who I was engaged to!
People usually wear silver but I wanted something more durable, and found a nice tungsten carbide ring on ebay. Unfortunately it was a big loose but luckily I also purchased some hematite rings at the same time (I like the dark colour). Together they decorated my finger. The tungsten signifying durable, lustrous matter that is held back by the hematite. Unfortunately, the hematite ring cracked when it got dropped on the floor and today the tungsten carbide ring sits unused.
When I went back to Indonesia this year, I came wearing a ring again but it was another silver ring from Peora made in China. Problem was that the edges were rough and irritated my finger so I gave up on wearing rings till this old new one popped back into my life.
After discovering the old new ring, I immediately put it on and after 5 or so years it still fit snugly into my ring finger. This time around it was to take on a new meaning..to say that I had been here for a quarter of a century and needed to do more with my life. And, I guess a small part of it was to say that my heart was currently attached (to someone that doesn't know).
Throughout the week I got a few reactions to it where people asked who I was engaged to or who the special person was etc. But at each time I said that the ring did not mean what they were thinking. It bore no significance and was given to me a long time ago. Some people didn't look convinced though.
Anyway, at first I wanted to wear it and see what sort of reaction I got, and then I started to like wearing the ring full time and wanted to keep it on till it was replaced at the time of marriage, but now I've decided to take it off (a week after putting it on). I did it because a friend asked about it last night and said that if I was available then I shouldn't wear it as it would give the impression that I was not available. Even though my heart is not available, I realised that my idea could backfire and make the person I was interested in think I was already with someone.
Even though it was odd to wear it at first, I grew to like using this old new ring. Every time I looked at it, it reminded me that this is what it might be like to be married and even though it has no significance, it reminded me of Her as well. This past week somewhat became a little experiment to see what a ring would do to my life and I can already feel its significance in marriage. Even though I would not take it as a form of belief that a ring will keep a bond, I can see its use as a reminder of a time, place or memory and is such a powerful tool to bring people together.
Throughout the week I got a few reactions to it where people asked who I was engaged to or who the special person was etc. But at each time I said that the ring did not mean what they were thinking. It bore no significance and was given to me a long time ago. Some people didn't look convinced though.
Anyway, at first I wanted to wear it and see what sort of reaction I got, and then I started to like wearing the ring full time and wanted to keep it on till it was replaced at the time of marriage, but now I've decided to take it off (a week after putting it on). I did it because a friend asked about it last night and said that if I was available then I shouldn't wear it as it would give the impression that I was not available. Even though my heart is not available, I realised that my idea could backfire and make the person I was interested in think I was already with someone.
Even though it was odd to wear it at first, I grew to like using this old new ring. Every time I looked at it, it reminded me that this is what it might be like to be married and even though it has no significance, it reminded me of Her as well. This past week somewhat became a little experiment to see what a ring would do to my life and I can already feel its significance in marriage. Even though I would not take it as a form of belief that a ring will keep a bond, I can see its use as a reminder of a time, place or memory and is such a powerful tool to bring people together.
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