Friday, August 15, 2008

Show me what is best for me in this life and the next

Istikharah prayer is a very powerful gift for us to use when we seek guidance from Allah. Having this huge decision to make, I previoudly did not want to use it because I was afraid of the outcome. As time goes by I relented and sort forgiveness in Allah and realised that I should've consulted Him first before anything else.

For the past week or so I've asked on and off about this huge decision. At first there were no responses. I read that you get dreams with some colours or have positive or negative connotations but because it was not happening I questioned my technique.

Last Tuesday seemed to be some sort of response that happened in real life. My aunty and uncle were discussing marriage and joked how someone younger than myself had already found someone so when would it be my turn. Of course I said I don't know but not long after that my uncle mentions her, the one in question. He thinks that we're suitable. This of course was right in front of my mum. I had to walk away.

Yesterday was the next sign so to speak. I had a dream where I asked her if she had done her work yet and she replied saying not all of it. I wake up and asked a similar question to whcih she replied don't ask me about it (same answer). Hey is there some kind of telepathic link gonig on here??

And this morning, as I was woken up by by phone for fajr prayer I was getting out of a dream and the first words that came into my mind were "love and affection". Rushing to remember what just happened in the dream I vaguely remember asking her why she and him broke up. Her answer was that "he was too loving and affectionate". What is that supposed to mean? I thought all girls like to be loved and show affection for them. How can you get too much that it turns you off? My first thoughts were she likes to play it rough? As in it's too easy for her. She doesn't have to do anything and she's already being loved so much that it gets boring.

In any case, I still need to ask for more guidance. None of these are clear signs to me but on face value the majority appear to be negative unfortunately. That's why I need more guidance just to be sure I am making the right decision of my life. InsyaAllah I will know soon. Allah knows best.

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