It's hard for me to say

For the past week or so I've noticed that my normal medium isn't doing what it's supposed to do, and I wanted to change the way I made contact. Now I didn't know how to do it because I only make conversation through that place and asking her to converse another way didn't seem appropriate.

So I'm getting to know this person and would like to get closer, yet the timezone barrier forces me to stay up late which I don't want to do. For the alst few weeks I've been getting less sleep until the point where I was only getting little sleep regularly. This was really bad when I was in solitary housing. It really got to me that I couldn't talk to anyone. I seriously learnt to appreciation company when I was on my own.

Anyway, with that experience, and using the laptop more, and bad light, my eyes started to worsen. Last Thursday I went to the optometrist who made me wear funky speckacles and said I had a mild form of that focusing error. Aya my eyes can't focus properly. The thought of me wearing glasses full time kinda put me down. I was only teasing my friend not logn ago about her eyes not focusing properly and now it's happenign to me. That'll teach me to be in front of computer all the time. I'm trying my best not to get glasses, and one of those ways is to use the computer less.

Back from my side track, I want to get to know this person, but I end up spending more time where I should be spending less. Faced with this dilemma I decided that I should sleep earlier in order to spend less time on the computer. And I'd have to find another way to contact her.

I mentioned this to her, that I wanted to sleep earlier from now on and asked if she checks her emails, to which she said no, so then I had to think of another way to maintain contact while not being live. And that's where I am at the moment...