Dream of Frustration

This was a dream where I was pursuing this particular girl for marriage, only to find out that she was recently married, that I missed out by a short time. I woke up thinking what the heck was that about since the reality is not so but it just made me think that maybe I'm just frustrated by the situation that I'm in. I mean a lot of people my age now are married, quite a few have kids and more often than not I kept getting asked the question when is it my turn. All these things puts more pressure on me to make a choice that I may regret. I know it is beneficial to get married, that it completes half your deen and so on, but till this point in time the ingredients for a successful marriage have not come my way. To me I feel as if perhaps this is Allah telling me that there's still more work to do. When you are ready, that's when you'll find your match. This is what keeps me going, the fact that I know that someone is out there for me; but is just out of view for now. Although time is ticking, I don't think I'm reacting fast enough to make a change happen. Perhaps its because I'm comfortable where I am. On one hand you see the beauty of the relationship between husband and wife and the unique family experience. On the other hand you see the pressures of life and juggling finances and so on. I guess I have doubt as to whether I'm capable of leading a family since I don't have much leadership experience. InsyaAllah the more I get involved in the community and build my self confidence, the more I can become a great husband and father. I leave this entry with an ayat from surat Al-Baqarah: "Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear..." (Qur'an 2:286). Allah will test us, and this is surely one of those tests, but He also knows our limits and things come in line with each other when He wills. P.S the person in the dream I've never met before, never spoken to and never knew existed. However, she does remind me of someone who I was really infatuated with some time ago so perhaps that's why my thoughts came this far. It's amazing what our minds can think of....